Moments when you feel all alone.

But then, could you really expect everyone to understand you/read your mind all the time?

It would be unfair of me to do so.

The blame comes back to me. Do not expect other people to do what you haven't even thought of. 

The one who will truly understand you is yourself and God, and the people you let into your life.

There are so many things to be thankful for.
Mommy found a contract job! Praise the Lord! I am glad people who interview her want to hire her right away. Hehehe :) The Lord is good! His love endures forever! Thank you God!
Today I also found out how to control my kids, without having to yell and scream at the top of my lungs. Which results in me feeling not as tired at the end of my day. God has given me wisdom to handle everything.
Also, somebody gave me an appreciative drawing, saying I am the best teacher. That makes me really reflect on the past four weeks I have spent at camp. Have I really done the best I could? Have I really been that 'best teacher' that they have written? I need to work harder now, and live up to it. I am so thankful that they have found me to be a good teacher, and don't mind me being lazy every so often. I have more responsibility to be even better to them.
Then there are things I have thought about. There are things I have thought "Should I?" After talking it out, I have been encouraged. But I will pray over it tonight before doing anything. There are just so many things on my mind, and I need to process one thing at a time.

Too many feels... So confused.

Once again, I have let you affect who I am. I don't know why things like this brings me down, but it does. I need something to distract me from it, everything I do somehow always makes me think of you.
I need help to get out of this cycle.

I was so excited at first.
But now, I don't want to see you any more.

From a while ago...

I read this on absolutshinwa. It's from 에릭 오빠's FB.

I really want to fall in love
The sky is so blue, the stars are really pretty
Please let me have a lover who will agree with me

I echo what he thinks.
Hope the time will come soon.
For him and for me.

A Gentleman's Dignity

Love is important.
But are you going to measure your value only as somebody's lover?
If it's fate (meant to be),it can't be avoided.